attempt to write creatively for 1984

There it was, covered in dirt, a small book with crinkled, dark yellow pages. After reading this book I knew I would be killed if anyone ever found out about it. When I returned from work yesterday I noticed that the base board under my telescreen had separated itself from the wall. This was not an unusual thing; everything around here is in bad shape. As I went to kick the board back against the wall, I heard an odd noise. I got down on my hands and knees to see it I could place the board back in place. As I grabbed the board my eye caught a glance of something, a rectangular shape covered in spider webs. As I looked closer I realized it was a book! Carefully I reached my hand into the dusty whole and barely pulled the book out, fearful that someone may be watching. Since I was under the screen I figured that I could somewhat feed my curiosity. As I gently opened the book I noticed that it was a journal. The date on the first page read January 8, 1937. The writing in the book described an unknown world. There were words I have never seen before and there was no mention of Big Brother or of the party. There on the 5th page I read about voting for a leader. The people would be led by a person who they chose? Big Brother is leader? As I continued to read the more I questioned what I have always known. I tucked the book back in the whole and placed the board back against the wall. I couldn’t sleep all last night. What was I going to do about this discovery, who could I tell? I couldn’t bring anyone else into my room. That would look really suspicious if two people ducked under the telescreen. Big Brother lied. What else could be a lie? I am going to secretly hide the book in my overalls and take it to the wooded areas. There I hope to read more without a telescreen watching me. It will be hard to change someone else’s thoughts, most people will doublethink what I show them. What can I do?